I’ve found that I don’t become certain by trying to make myself feel certain.
(For some reason, this is a thing all the manifestation teachers say you MUST feel to have what you want)
All that trying to make myself feel certain really does is make me feel like a failure, for not being able to do it and a fraud, because certainty is an illusion at best, and a lie at worst.
The truth is that nothing is certain, ever. Life is wild and woolly, and we have far less control than we like to imagine (that’s been a hard pill to swallow)
Ironically, I’m finding that the more I just get okay with feeling uncertain, and instead prioritize feeling right-in-my-soul about who I am….
I notice bubbling up within me, a whole different kind of “certainty” (although that doesn’t even seem like the right word)
It’s this sense that, no matter what happens, I’m good with me. .. and, as if by magic *poof* I just naturally begin having the feeling that everything is working out just as it should
Instead of asking “how can I feel more certain?” — I think a more powerful question to ask would be, “Why is uncertainty such a disdained experience that I’m willing to sell my unborn children to get rid of it?” Lol
Could it be that certainty is waaaaay overrated, and that uncertainty is actually a really beautiful, human experience to relax into?
Maybe, just maybe, uncertainty actually has something very valuable to teach us, if only we’d lean in and listen…